I am tempted to make actual resolutions this year. I’m not going to go crazy and have giant resolutions I know I won’t be able to keep like “go to the gym every day” or “stop failing tests”. Call it a free spirit or call it lazy, but I don’t do very well with restrictions and commitments. Exhibit A: I made a bucket list last summer of like 20 things, and I only crossed maybe 2 of those things off. That’s 10%. I only lived to 10% of my summer’s potential.

So I’m going to put these resolutions out there, just utter them in a blog post, and then we’ll see what happens. But I’m not making any promises.

So what now 2013? This year, I resolve to work on these ten things:

1. Write “2013” on my papers instead of “2012”: This might be my hardest one because, *confession* I still sometimes randomly write 2010 when I’m not thinking. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because it’s such a nice number.
2. Ask for help when I need it: I’ll admit it, I can be kind of proud sometimes. I’m really bad at asking for help and admitting I’m wrong, especially if it’s toward a person I’m not particularly fond of. I also need to accept that the fact I’m not good at doing something, and stop trying to convince myself that I don’t suck at everything because, let’s be honest, nobody’s perfect– not even me.
3. Be nicer to people: I’ve realized that I can be a real mule to some people. Maybe it’s because people don’t always understand my permanent state of sarcasm, which is unfortunate because it makes them think I’m either a)a witch or b)stupid, and I don’t like to think of myself as either of the two. These said people are also missing out on some quality humor via me.
4. Drink more water: This will be my attempt at staying healthy this year. I might not be able to hit the gym every day, but I can sure as jack drink a bottle of water every day.
5. Look on the bright side: I need to stop being such a baby and a pessimist about everything. I’m not going to all-of-a-sudden become one of those bright-eyed bushy-tailed morning people (we’re thinking achievable goals here, remember?), but I’m also not going to complain about everything as much as I have in the past.
6. Wear less grey: I like grey. It’s a nice color and it goes with everything and you don’t have to wash it after every time you wear it. Unfortunately, having a lot of grey in my closet forces me to dress like a dusty grandma, which isn’t exactly going to bring me far in life.
7. Learn how to spell “gray”: Is it G-R-E-Y or G-R-A-Y?
8. Learn how to work the features of my car: I honestly don’t even know how to turn the heater on in my car, so in the winter, I drive to school in a rolling icebox. I do know how the radio works though, so that’s a plus.
9. Speak more Spanish: Especially when the Costa Rican exchange students come at the end of the month. I really need to practice my Spanish more, because I have exponentially been getting suckier and suckier at speaking and understanding the language.The same kind of goes for Russian. I also feel really bad because we always talk to the Costa Ricans in English and there really isn’t much hablo-ing in español.
10. Clean out my desk: I like to think of myself as really organized, but since we’re being all honest here, I’m really not. I occasionally get little spurts of OCD and I clean out my closet or my backpack or something, but that usually means stuffing half of the clutter into my ginormous dinosaur of a desk. The thing is hideous, and I think I take my anger out on said monstrosity by shoving everything into its many drawers and paper slots. There are so many little hiding spots in there that I feel compelled to fill them with stuff. In saying that, my desk is now full of random stuff that I need to get rid of, but can’t because I feel bad if every inch of space is not taken up. I like to tell myself that if I somehow, with God’s mercy, manage to clean out my desk, it will act as a metaphor to my life and everything in general will fall into place.

Based on previous results, there is a 50% that I will actually fulfill 10% of these resolutions, but only time will tell if anything will happen, so for the time being, none of us should get too excited.

Happy 2010!